Your inadequate attempts at creating will tell you what you need to learn. They will act as guide, as mentor. They are not a reflection of you, your soul or your essential self. They are indicators of which faculties need enrichment, development, refinement.
So write, create, draw, make and do it as well as you can and know that it will be bad. And by bad, all I mean is that it will not be up to your standards. This is good. Because only now can you begin to see the difference between where you are and where you want to be. Only now can you begin to close the gap.